Friday, February 22, 2008


I went on the date last night... it was...anti-climactic. I guess that's a good thing, but I think I was looking for a little "wow" factor. Turns out we had a couple of mutual friends (not that surprising when you reside in this state) and he was very nice, but it just wasn't exciting. If he calls me again, I think I'll go out with him once more, to really see, but this dating thing? Is totally new to me. Does it take a while before you think it might be fun to hang out? I don't know...

I'm heading to beautiful Hilton Head Island, SC on Sunday and absolutely cannot wait. Warm weather here I come...I'll catch up with y'all next week!

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Thursday, February 21, 2008

That's Blinding

So, remember that guy I told you about? From early December? The one I gave my number to but didn't remember then he called me? Well, he called me a bunch of other times between then and now but it just never worked out. We saw each other at that bar again, said hi, just wasn't there, you know? So, come to find out... he is 55 years old (!!!!!) and MARRIED (!!!!!!). WHAT A CREEP. I knew he was older, but honestly, he looks late 30's early 40's. 55 is a little much. And MARRIED. ARE YOU SERIOUS?!? If I wanted another unfaithful person I guess he would be great. Come on.

A few weekends ago I went to a dinner party at a friend's and met some very nice people. One girl was talking about this guy friend she has who is so great but she never knows any nice girls to hook him up with. This is where I come in. I totally forgot about the conversation, but she talked to him about me... he facebooked me... and we're meeting tonight for drinks. While this is not officially a "blind" date (I've seen his pics on FB) it's the closest I've ever been. I'm kind of excited. I hope it goes really well, but if not... at least I'm getting out! :)

Completely unrelated- -the Today Show is broadcasting LIVE! from VERMONT! today which has been very fun because EVERYONE 'round here is like... WHOO! CELEBRITIES! WHOO! (Hey, we don't see too many of them). So... yesterday I was called at work to bring some things by the "set" to their producer and I met Meredith. Yes, I did. And she was SUPER nice! So, basically, I'm a celebrity now too.

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Tuesday, February 19, 2008

For the Record

I am not back together with my boyfriend. He (SAYS he)would like to be, but how can I date someone that I don't trust? At all. I'm torn between doing what I KNOW is right and doing what is easy/comfortable.

The whole situation is so difficult and confusing. I don't want to be with someone who doesn't love and respect me. If he DID love and respect me he wouldn't have done what he did. THEREFORE I should kick his tush to the curb and be done with him- - and I have- - but not TOTALLY, you know? We still talk, we still communicate... I saw him last weekend (hence the disapointment from you guys) and he will be in the same place that I'm going on vacation. (We're not going together.) It's just so completely crazy that I can't even get my head around it. He says he made a terrible mistake, he's so sorry, blah, blah blah... I say I deserve better and can do better. He says he KNOWS I'm what he wants and I say, well... I know I don't want what he's done.

I just don't know how to make it better...or feel better. I'm beginning to hate myself for letting him get away with this even though I haven't really, because we've broken up. I don't know, I feel like he doesn't deserve the smallest part of me but, for some ridiculous reason, I feel bad taking it away...

I'm reminded of The Wedding Singer... "Love Stinks". :)

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do you feel like you just cannot take one more minute of your day? That's how I've been feeling lately. I haven't gotten enough sleep though so I'm sure that has something to do with it. I have a vacation coming up... I'm leaving Sunday. Hopefully that will clear my mind...


Monday, February 18, 2008

Because They're So True

I know this pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Dont ever let anyone step all over you
Just open your heart and your mind
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?

Some day somebodys gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Dont you know? Dont you know things can change
Thingsll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Thingsll go your way
Hold on for one more day

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
You''ot no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin your worries pass you by
Dont you think its worth your time
To change your mind?

I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and
Break free the chains
Yeah I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and you
Break free, break from the chains

Some day somebodys gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Dont you know? Dont you know things can change
Thingsll go your way
If you hold on for one more day yeah
If you hold on

Dont you know things can change
Thingsll go your way
If you hold on for one more day,If you hold on
Can you hold on
Hold on baby
Wont you tell me now
Hold on for one more day cause
Its gonna go your way
Dont you know things can change
Thingsll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Cant you change it this time
ake up your mind
Hold on
Hold on
Baby hold on

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Thursday, February 14, 2008

Alright, I'll Say It

Happy Valentine's Day to All!
Crazy stuff 'round here...wait til I fill you in. I think you're going to be v. disapointed in me. Darn it.


Tuesday, February 12, 2008

I Hate to be Morbid

and I'm not sure I want to call attention to this directly. But if you're so inclined... google 90 Day Jane and see what comes up... it's very sad.


Monday, February 11, 2008

Help, Please

First- - excuse my lapse in posting and commenting this week. I am v. busy at work and, unfortunately, don't have time to be hanging around blog-land.

Second- - I am planning a last minute vacation in February and NO TRAVEL SITES HAVE ANY FLIGHTS THAT ARE REMOTELY AFFORDABLE. I'm just flying into Savannah, GA. The tickets that I'm finding are more expensive than when I went to Spain. Not cool.

Any recommendations for CHEAP airfare? (Southwest is out b/c that's not at the Burlington airport and JetBlue doesn't fly into Savannah.) Ugh.

Oh, and my best friend at Jazzercise (the one I talk about all of the time) got fired from our Jazz Center on Friday. Not cool.

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Friday, February 08, 2008

Have I Ever Mentioned...

that Friday at my house is Bagel Day? I always pack two bagels for work- - one for breakfast, one for lunch. But, yea...I usually eat them both for breakfast.

Feeling like the women in that commercial with the donuts on their butts.

FUN. :)


Thursday, February 07, 2008

Bows, Bows, Bows

::::sigh:::: a preppy dream-come-true check it out HERE


Who Are You?

So... someone from my work has been reading this by searching "Preppy in VT" on google... creepy.


The One Where She Takes Forever to Get to the Point

Background information:
Usually my Wednesday nights consist of teaching a jazzercise class, a personal training session, going home, showering, eating dinner and getting in bed by 9pm. I'm a creature of habit, what can I say?

Saturday night I went out to the local bar I always talk about with a couple of my friends. We had a great time, I flirted with a couple guys, actually bought one of them a shot (I'm trying to be... you know...COOL) and gave one of them my number. At the end of the night and a few drinks later one of my friends drove me the 100 yards home and I passed out- - in my clothes. Standard procedure. (Actually, that's not true, I've only EVER fallen asleep in my clothes ONE other time, so that part? Notsostandard).

Well, when I drink I tend to talk a big game. I ALWAYS over-promise and (grossly) under-deliver. If you ask me to be your best friend, I'll say SURE! (even if I actually hate you.) Ask to meet the next night for a drink- - absolutely! (even if I have NO intention of actually going.) Hey, it sounds good at the time, okay?

So, when this guy, we'll call him A. Asks me if I want to hang out after closing, I'm all- - "yea, that would be fun, just let me run home and get a few things..." (remember, I basically live next door so this is not so weird, but it's a little weird, I get it. I was DRINKING, ALRIGHT?!?) I head home and, as we know, go straight to bed. I don't wake up until 6am with about 8 missed calls- - 6 from various friends and 2 from A. I feel a little bad because he is unfamiliar with my "big game talk" and probably thinks that I'm really rude so, I did what you all would do, I called him back at 6am. AND. HE. ANSWERED. I thought that I could just leave a message but... that? Was not the case. I apologized for not answering the night before, explained that I went straight to bed and that really, if we ever see each other at a bar again and it's after 10pm he should probably COUNT on the fact that I'll be going home and straight to bed. (Of course, I said it in a much funnier way to him and impressed him with my quick wit and charm.) And then I hung up as quickly as possible.

My phone rings at 11:30am Sunday morning with his number again. I was very busy sewing my quilt so I didn't answer and wanted him to leave a message any because I couldn't exactly remember his name... (yea, the drinking.) Well, he leaves a message but doesn't SAY HIS NAME. (For all of you out there- - SAY YOUR NAME WHEN YOU LEAVE A MESSAGE. LIKE THIS: "HI, IT'S SCOTT, blah blah blah, or HEY, It"S TIM, blah blah blah- - OKAY?!?) I finished sewing at 1 and figured that I would call him back, I mean, I have nothing to lose. So, I called him, talked for a couple of minutes and as we were hanging up he asked if I wanted to maybe meet up for a drink later in the week. I figured, what the heck- - and said sure, call me.

So... all day Sunday I try to remember his name, called my friends I was out with to see if they remembered, and regaled my parents and sisters with stories from the night. (see, you don't know this about me, but I am a very. funny. drunk. Really. By the end of the night I usually have the girls wishing they were my best friends and the guys wishing I was their girlfriend. Oh, and I'm modest too.) And of course, all Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday they're all, "When is he gonna call? Do you think he's going to call you? Are you going to go out if he does?" And I told them each time, "You guys, we talked Sunday afternoon. He said later in the week. I'm sure he's going to call me Wednesday night to make plans for Friday or Saturday. Really." Then I would roll my eyes like, PUH-LEASE, don't you PEOPLE have ANY idea how the dating world works because I? Amveryfamiliarwithit. (HA.)

Wednesday night rolls around and I was talking with my friend at Jazzercise and just explained to HER that he would probably call tonight when- - you're never going to believe it- - my phone rang and it. was. him. (God, I am SO good. Please take a moment and clap quietly. Thanks.) I let him leave a message because I was still waiting for confirmation on the NAME. I finished up at Jazz, and listened to the message (his name was what I THOUGHT it was). He was out for a bite to eat and wanted to know if I would like to meet up for a beer later. (okay, so I ALMOST had the plan right.) Well, it was already 7:45pm and if you were paying attention, that only gives me 1 hour and 45 minutes to shower, eat, and have a drink (if I'm going to) to still be in bed by 9.

I called him on my way home, he didn't answer, so I just left a message. Went home, got in the shower, he called back, I called him back... yadda yadda yadda... I told him I would meet him for a drink around 8:30 at the bar near my house.

I got there around 8:10 because I wanted to be there first and get the seats, I wanted and to see who else was there and I wanted to buy my own drink before he got there to completely alleviate any, "I'll buy you a drink" stuff. (I'm crazy, I know.) So I had an almost full beer and great seats when he walked in and joined me. We chatted, talked about Saturday night, our jobs, and one of my friends came in so we visited with her too. An hour and a half (and three beers) later I headed home (I had 6am Jazz today!), thanked him for the drinks (he bought the last two) and said that I would talk to him later.

Overall? It was a pretty good... he's 33 (a little old for me, but whatever...), an aircraft technician, and seems nice enough. I don't see it going anywhere, but that's not really what I'm looking for, so? For right now? It's fine.

And...I have (semi, kind-of) dates tonight, Friday night and Saturday night... so...we'll see what happens. :)

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Wednesday, February 06, 2008

I'm Not Reading My Horoscope Again for a Week

SCORPIO (Oct. 24-Nov. 21). If your feelings are not reciprocated, take heart. Love is never lost. It will always return to you from somewhere -- maybe not from the direction you'd like it to come, but it will return to you from somewhere.


Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Hypothetically Speaking

Let me set the scene...

You had a boyfriend that you had been dating for three years. It was long-distance which was tough, but you thought that (soon) you would be closer geographically. You saw each other for Thanksgiving and Christmas and went to Spain together for the new year. While you're at his house for Thanksgiving he's weirdly secretive about his phone but you let it go. While he's at your house for Christmas, you notice some fairly disturbing text messages and ask him about them. He claims it's nothing, you relent.

While in Spain you have some pretty intense heart-to-hearts and really try to verbalize what has been going on with each of you individually and as a couple. You seem to get to a good place together and begin to look and move forward.

On the second-to-last night there you're out a bar with your sisters, the boyfriends and some friends you met while vacationing. Everyone has their cameras out and are taking pictures. Your boyfriend hands you his camera to hold. While there is a lull in activity you begin to flip through the pictures of the vacation and admire them, then get to pictures of Christmas, admire those... then get to pictures of him out at a bar with another girl. They're kissing. Your stomach immediately drops and you freeze. You really want to put the camera away but keep flipping. Then you see them- - pictures of he and her, in bed together. On two different occasions. The same girl you asked about before you left on the trip. The same girl who WAS. ON. HIS. TEAM. LAST. YEAR. that you've met.

You, obviously, freak out and end the relationship. You do a really great job ignoring him for the first week that you're both back but then, gradually, you begin to answer his texts, email and phone calls. You never initiate contact, but you do communicate. Through all of this communication, you discuss yourselves, the relationship, what happened and he, is convinced that you will eventually get back together. That the other girl was "nothing" and he doesn't want/like her. He calls every day, writes emails that say how sorry he is, he still wants you to go on the vacation you were supposed to take with him in February. He calls you with plans for the summer, he calls you "Babe" in every conversation even though you asked him not to, he talks about the future he wants to spend with you.

While he says that this other girl is "nothing," you know that she picked him up from the airport when he arrived from Spain. That they spent the weekend together two days later and that they've spent (at least) two other nights together since then. He refuses to admit that she is a factor, at all, in his life.

What would YOU do?

Because, I? Am lost.


I Promise

I won't turn this into my daily horoscope fix, but...

SCORPIO (Oct. 24-Nov. 21). While you're looking longingly in someone's direction, someone else is looking longingly toward you. These games of triangular love could go on for days.

Are you serious? I don't even take them seriously, but COME ON!!!!!!!


Monday, February 04, 2008

My Horoscope Today

Relationships are tricky now, and you feel like it's time you made important decisions. Should you cross the bridge or burn it? Likely, the best answer is neither. Take a boat underneath it while you think it over.

Talk about a mixed message. :)


Friday, February 01, 2008

Dear A.